Good Luck! I want to wish you all the best in your quest to beat anorexia. Its difficult to take the first step but you've already shown courage in writing to Alice, so I think you have what it takes...
Desperation's Thin FaceOriginally Published: October 1, 1994 - Last Updated / Reviewed On: July 27, 2007 |
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Dear Alice,
Last year I was Teetering on the Brink and this year I've fallen off of it. The teetering individual who was worried about how much she thought about food and her weight has turned into a very scared person who has fallen off the brink, with little on her mind but what she eats, when she eats it, and how she looks. I haven't had my period for almost a year and exercise compulsively until I can't anymore, when my legs simply hurt so bad and my knees won't hold me up. Worse, I seem to be losing bladder control—several times when I've been very tired, I've wet the bed at night or been unable to wait until I got to a bathroom. I can't live like this anymore and every morning I promise myself I'm going to change but then night rolls around and I've not changed a thing. Please tell me something that will help—I never knew desperation's face was this thin.
—Needing Help
Dear Needing Help,
Thank you for writing, reaching out can be intimidating, even online. You've taken the first step towards regaining your health by admitting you have a problem and being ready to ask for help. You can't do this alone, although it may seem like you should be able to because you got into this alone. The reality is that anorexia nervosa (whose symptoms you describe perfectly, by the way) is a very complex disorder, and it will take time, energy, and working with health care professionals to untangle the components that got you into this state. Whereas last year you may have been teetering on the brink, it is now safe to say that this year you've crossed the line.
At this point, it is imperative that you see a health care provider. Some of the long term physiological effects of anorexia are irreversible, and it sounds like you may be headed in that direction. Your physician may also recommend that you start a comprehensive treatment program for eating disorders. If you are a Columbia Student, call x4-2284 or log into Open Communicator, let them know that this is urgent. You may choose to make an appointment with a member of the Eating Disorders Team, a multidisciplinary group of clinicians specializing in disordered eating issues among students.
If talking out loud about your problems seems daunting, you can start by simply making a list of your symptoms (as you've done here) and telling them to a counselor or doctor. Your health care provider will be able help you move forward from there. Together you will be able to work out a plan of action — be it an in-treatment program, an out-patient program, or group and/or individual counseling. You can make the decision both based on your personal needs and your insurance plan. If you are not a Columbia student, you can find resources and information from the National Eating Disorders Association website and their helpline at 1.800.931.2237.
Please talk to someone soon. You're worth it!!!
July 27, 2007
21292Good Luck! I want to wish you all the best in your quest to beat anorexia. Its difficult to take the first step but you've already shown courage in writing to Alice, so I think you have what it takes. I think Alice's idea of preparing a list of symptoms can definitely help to ease the pain of discussing them with a doctor, and I would add that you could take the list with you, so if you are really stuck for words you can just hand them something in writing. Best wishes!